it seems wrong that there are so many patients with this condition but it’s not something we talk about.
it’s because of the areas it can affect. there are open lesions that are [painful], and sometimes they leak a foul odour and pus. some people, i think, are too embarrassed to come out, especially [because it] usually comes on in puberty. i didn’t even tell my mom i got my period — i didn’t want to tell her i had lesions and boils. plus, if you google the symptoms, often they are related to an sti, and that’s embarrassing.
awareness has grown over the last few years, and now folks are like ‘oh, this is what i have, and
i’m not alone. i didn’t cause this, this isn’t my fault.’ the minute you get your diagnosis and find that you’re not the only person that has this disease … it just really changes your whole perspective.
having open lesions sounds awful.
nodules, cysts, boils, lesions are the terms that are most commonly used. and when it progresses, they make tunnels under the skin. when mine were at its worst, i could press on one area of my skin and stuff would come out of different areas because it had just spread under the skin.
is it painful?
yes. imagine having a ping-pong ball in your groin, under the skin. there’s not a lot of skin there. it’s literally all-consuming — it’s all you can think about. i have thought about taking a kitchen knife and trying to open it just to relieve the pressure — it’s that much pressure. when they are opened them up, it’s instant relief because the pressure just goes away.
when my disease first began, i would get hard nodules that would either open on their own or i’d have to get an incision and have them drained. as the disease progressed and i had the tracts, they would just never heal — they would always be open.
photo courtesy of krystle sutherland.
you mentioned that as a teenager, hs is embarrassing and hard to talk about. what led to you getting treatment?