then came the first lockdown in ontario because of covid-19. we had a virtual appointment with a neurologist, i think it was in june or july, he told us everything was okay, and sent us back to the orthopedist. meanwhile, mehtab was getting worse — he was barely able to walk 100 metres without getting tired.
by december 2020, mehtab had developed a lazy eye, or what’s called strabismus. our doctor was very concerned and suggested that we take him to the emergency department at sick kids er immediately because she thought he may have a brain tumour that was causing all of these symptoms. after three days, and many tests, we found out he had spinal muscular atrophy.
all of that time spent watching these worrisome symptoms, and seeing so many doctors without getting a definitive diagnosis — it must have been so frustrating.
sma is a disease that affects the motor neurons, and once the motor neurons die, they are gone. they cannot be revived. if the disease was caught back in june or july, mehtab’s treatment would have started back then. that’s why the doctors here in ontario have added a sma to newborn screening panel, because early detection is so important.
we did not want that sma diagnosis — no parent wants a rare disease diagnosis. but when we left the hospital after finally finding out what was going on, it was kind of a relief.
what went through your mind when you heard that the damage from sma was not reversible?
i don’t think i can ever forget that; it’s deep in my mind. it was like our whole world changed. it was shattering. we were scared, and at that time, we didn’t know how the treatment worked, or even if he was able to get it.
when i look back, the one thing that i’ve learned — which is what i tell other parents now — is that if you think there’s something going on with your kid and the doctors say no, trust your heart. keep on trusting your instincts.