self-blame and living with obesity
“so, you know, this is every meeting room i would walk into. this is what i would confront. and i would say, ‘my god, why can’t i be like that? what am i lacking? why am i so weak? why am i so weak that i can’t do the work that i need to do, just to move a bit more, eat a bit less, resist that dessert?’”
beyond the withering self-blame, he says people living with obesity are often tormented by photos of themselves. deon would go to a splashy event where photos were taken, and he’d look at those photos with sadness.
“i would never say, ‘wow, this is a great looking group, what a great memory of that evening.’ i would just look at them and say, ‘i’m really fat.’” he would throw the photos out, so he wouldn’t be reminded of his size.
but obesity is not something you can escape.
“there’s the stigma of being weak-willed, not able to control cravings, being susceptible to advertising for food. that has an impact on your sense of self-worth and self-confidence so that food becomes a balm to heal what ails you and provides you with comfort.”
what changed deon’s health was a connection to a leader in obesity management, dr. remi rabasa-lhoret, an endocrinologist in montreal who talked to him about new drugs in development. this was when researchers were just starting to see people with type 2 diabetes losing weight on ozempic, the semaglutide medication first approved for treatment of type 2 diabetes. after the landmark
clinical trial of semaglutide for weight loss was published, funded by the ozempic manufacturer, novo nordisk, dr. remi rabasa-lhoret suggested he try it. and so, he did.
losing weight and gaining confidence
this was in 2022, after his weight had climbed to almost 300 pounds during the isolation of the global pandemic. the impact of the medication was liberating, releasing him from his addiction to food. “for the first time in years, i started to feel good in my body. i would look at myself in the mirror and smile. now my wife says i can’t stop looking at myself in the mirror,” he says, smiling broadly.